Over this past week I’ve put everything into test by texting you firsthand to see what kind of replies you would generate, and if you already have the courtesy to reply all texts of mine well.
But nah, not all.
Between my SMSes and your replies, there is usually a gap of at least five hours. Five freaking hours. It is a rarity that you can reply my SMS below an hour.
And during those five freaking hours, you have all the excuses you could generate such as ‘just awoken from nap’, or ‘went back from pal’s house’, or some other stuff that keeps you so preoccupied that you didn’t even have time to pay a courtesy to a friend.
And yeah, you also had all the time in the world to update your Facebook status (but wasted no time to reply a text message by a friend)
I tell you what. No matter how annoying I think a friend is, I always have the courtesy to reply his/her SMS, within a normal duration. It rarely takes me five hours plus just to answer someone’s query in a text message.
And I believe that’s how a human being is supposed to treat his/her friends, and that’s what you should be doing too.
It has dawned upon me these days: after all I have done to you, you are still the only friend of mine who treats me with the least care and attention.
Name anybody… Boon, sis R, Debs, Ford, Monic, or even those in Bali or China with whom I still keep in touch.
They always try to do their best to listen to me when I’m down, ask about my health when I’m ill, and keep a good track on my whereabouts.
What about you?
You don’t even care. You still regard those girlfriends of yours at school with better attention than you do towards me.
What have those school friends of yours have done for you anyway?
Have they ever treated you with gifts at unexpected moments?
Have they ever stayed awoke past 11 just to help you with your English homework?
I have noticed that you contact me when you need help with homeworks only. Is that all I’d ever been to you?
Not really as a friend nor cousin, but a mere tutor of school lessons?
I couldn’t even believe myself that I had once decided to leave Dins just so that I could go back for you.
Yes, leaving my most treasured person like her for an ungrateful person like you.
That’s a bad bargain. In fact, it was one of the worst bargains I could ever made.
I’ve seen what kind of person you really are. I’ve seen well how you treat friends with such selective picks.
It’s such a waste that you had let a person like me pass by like that when you had the chance.
Where else could you find a multilingual Indonesian American guy who happens to have close relations to your family, and aspires to become a diplomat and travel the world in the future?
Yeah, and that guy seemed to like you a lot too.
Too bad for you.
Because today I could see everything clearly. You don’t even deserve it.
~post’script.
Now I’m not going to treat you as I did before when I was angry (with such pretentious indifference).
No, I won’t.
Rather, I’ll still be available to help you when you need me.
It’s just that I know that you no longer deserve any birthday presents from me. If you need a lending ear for your problems, go to your girlfriends. They are better listeners, are they not?
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