You wondered whether I still love you or not.
I think you know the answer well, dear.
You could get thru this, I know you could.
Of course, it would be great if things had worked out differently for us. But it would be better for our own sake if we stop hoping in the impossible.
There are several things in life that we cannot fathom now, hence all this pains.
But I believe that God has a better plan for you. You are destined for a better plan than this, and I know you'll thank me one day. Perhaps a year from now, five years, or ten years down the road?
Now I want you to know something, in case you haven't realised.
The happiness I gain from being with you did not start on 1st of January 2009.
No, it started waaaaaay before that. It was from the moment I finally felt grateful to have known you back then, May or June 2008 methinks.
I don't regret at all at having known you. Neither do I regret for having been in a relationship with you.
Despite all the pains I have gotten, your existence gave me some of the most unforgettable memories in the last several years.
I still remember the first day we went out for ice-skating in a little-less-than-perfect detail.
I could recall well how silly you look when we played bowling with our two pals.
I loved the day I broke fast together with you and them after going to the movies in Grand Indonesia.
and I cherished the days I had to wait for you asking me out in the weekends.
If you think that our being together was a right thing, I could see the logic now. And I couldn't agree more.
Our relationship was correct in the sense that both of us could learn something from it, that life may not always go in the way we want, no matter how much tears we have shed to gain them.
Hence I want to thank you for various things you have made available for me.....
for keeping up to my whines till late at 1AM.
for always showing me a tough smile to me although your own world was falling apart.
for staying loyal in my side when my world was falling apart.
for persistently showing me such loving warmth even when I was mad at you.
for going into such great lengths to avoid hurting my feelings.
for buying me those memorabilia just to carve a smile on my face.
for convincing me that I'm not the worst person in the world.
for having that cute smile on your face.
for having those pretty eyes (yes, I do like yours too!)
for being so hardheaded when it comes to NOT taking pictures.
for giving me a reason to smile in the morning and find you waking me up.
for being the first person who asked me out to the movies and ice rinks in years.
for making the year 2008 less painful than it should have been.
for being the first person on earth who wished me a happy 19th birthday.
for being the only person I chatted with during the turnover of year 2008-2009.
and for being half of my life, once.
Yes, let's end it with a smile.
At this moment I could promise you one thing.
For as long as I could remember your full name, until our teeth fall out and our hair fade into grey, I'll forever be there for you...as a loyal friend.
I'll never ever leave your side as a friend and brother and confidant; anytime you wanna share your laughs and tears I'm always available... You have my number, right?
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